eyes on God – when I don’t know what to do I set my eyes on Him. September recap.
*welcome to a new installment of ‘pillow talks’ where once a month I catch you all up on what has been happening and share what I may have learnt that month. Through this I hope to help make sense of events that happen in life and encourage others (you!) as well. Think of it like friends sharing the goings on of life and finding support with each other!*
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September felt like both the shortest and longest month. A lot happened and it also didn’t. A weird month. But mostly a good one.
Swirling around the normal activities of life for my family over in the US and Mexico there were hurricanes, floods and earthquakes. Though we here in Australia were not close to the events I believe we all still felt the shock and fear. Social media gave us all a real-time insiders view of the events unfolding. Making it all the more confronting seeing firsthand the devastation and impact on people’s lives. Adding to that is the recent mass shooting in Las Vegas. It’s simply heartbreaking that someone could do that and devastate so many families lives.
It left a lot thinking or wondering – what can I do? And how to reconcile what happened over there to so many?
At least I was thinking along those lines……reconciling in my mind that events like these happen because we live in a fallen world. And because God gave people free will…..people have and will abuse that free will.
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Closer to home though, I’ve still been wondering what direction my life will take. This month I was particularly restless with potential ideas and the fact there is no set path. Loads of ideas have been jumping around in my mind but I don’t know which to pursue. There’s maybe a hazy picture forming of a something but……..I don’t know.
I’m thinking I’m at a point with this though that I do just need to take a step!
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This month my family has been a source of stress (they have been at other times too of course, but they’re often a source of great joy, love and contentment). Everyone has their moments right?
But lately, there have been shifts, changes in some and much-needed but non existent change in others. New interests, beliefs and hobbies are being pursued though not entirely ones that are a good idea. Let’s say some slight cause for concern in some instances.
Now, I have learnt that I can not fix or change people. It just doesn’t work that way. But what can I do? To help or guide or…….?
I was talking to my grandma the other day. She is incredibly wise and knowledgable so I often go to her with questions or simply to chat about things that are going on. We talked about the things I’ve just mentioned here and how I don’t know what to do about any of it. She said to me do what Elijah did – he looked to God when he didn’t know what to do, when he couldn’t see any way to fix his problem or even see the way ahead fully.
You see Elijah (a prophet from the Bible) had been in hiding for quite some time before God spoke to him, telling him to come out of hiding and go to a certain place. Elijah didn’t know how he was going to travel to this place for one thing nor how he would eat once there or where he would sleep. He basically set out not knowing a thing about how he would survive because God had told him to. But he knew that everything was under control – Elijah didn’t know what to do but he kept his eyes on God. The story of Elijah is actually really interesting and a beautiful example of trusting in God fully. Read his story in 1 Kings 17 – 19.
My grandma suggested I take a leaf out of Elijah’s book. Keep reminding myself of this phrase:
I don’t know what to do, but my eyes are on You
A simple phrase but so far has been quite effective. Saying this to myself forces me to acknowledge I really don’t know what I’m doing but despite this I choose to turn my eyes on God. Because He is steady and certain. I’m still angry and frustrated and all those things (about the tragedies in the US) and impatient and concerned about me and my own family. But I can still choose to stop and fix my eyes on God. Nothing else makes sense otherwise.
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And now here is once again the part of this post where I over-share my life through photos – i.e everything I ate and LOTS of flowers.
Cute boots for some rainy weather (also seen here).
Delicious ‘Taboast’ from Argo Espresso
A dreary cold day…..
……a toasty fire will fix that!
One of my favourite places. Read here why I go to Bounce.
What I called my ‘noodle hair’ after wearing braids for two weeks!
These scrummy bikkies about to go in the oven……
….and done! Delicious!
Loving the shades of purple and lilac.
I said I wouldn’t do the embroidered jeans trend again…….
Getting excited to start wearing some more Spring florals!
Raw cheesecake slice, my favourite kind of snack!
My youngest brothers birthday dinner featuring this gorgeous wallpaper. He has grown up so fast though…..
Brother’s awesome donut cake! It was amazing and delicious and more people should consider them!
A good spread for lunch on an outing with the grandparents at Emma & Ivy.
Finally found the perfect white jeans! From Zara.
Pastel leather might be my latest obsession…….
The view from the holiday house down at Victor Harbour.
Making birthday breakfast for my dear cousin. Also, let’s just appreciate the colour palette of the image….totally unintentional!
Off to the Bluff for birthday picnic shenanigans.
Cheeky cheese platter (let’s pretend I’m not dairy and gluten free for just a moment). The brie was worth it!
Outings and shopping with the besties ❤
Delicious ‘caramel’ sauce. Recipe for that you can read here. It’s so easy to make – only three ingredients!
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Thank you for stopping by friends. I hope you all had a lovely long weekend (for my Aussie friends) and are enjoying the warm sunny days. And remember to keep your eyes on God. Even though there is so much going on everywhere and a lot of it doesn’t make sense and no one knows what to do. Eyes on God.
Until next time lovelies!